sometimes, you're not always exactly where you want to be. sometimes, you look around, and see dark curtains, four walls and barred windows. it doesn't always seem right - right there where you are standing. its awkward, uncomfortable, and so you look around for an escape route. i look around for whats next, i seek out opportunity, excitement, and adventure. When I'm not at peace with the here and now, I quickly determine that I am no longer aligned with the journey designed for me.
26 years ago, i rolled over for the first time. 25 years ago, i took my first steps. 24 years ago my little feet ran for the first time and 21 years ago, I hiked my first peak.
1 week ago, for the first time since, I resorted back to standing still. It broke every habit I had created since I was two years old. It was uncomfortable, it was awkward - I stood still while new adventures passed by. I stood still at the base of the mountain - as the peak sneered at my weakness and frailty. but i didn't respond. the peak went unclimbed, unconquered. But for the first time, as I stood at the base, I knew this was where I was supposed to be. And its then that i realized that the journey of standing still was more challenging for me than climbing the mountain.
And so, if you're watching me - I know you're waiting for my next move. I know you're wondering what I'm going to do next... where I'm going to explore and what life changing story ill be telling you about next. I know you don't see it - can't see it, but this moment in time, this standing still, may be the most challenging journey I've experienced yet.
so, for now, here I stand. stop watching, you might get bored.